Me, Mang & Work
Days are passing by so quick. Before you know it, it will be Christmas, then the New Year, then my birthday (>Ack! I’ll soon be 24!!!). What should I be at this stage? Am I in the right track? Should I be somewhere else? Are these people the right people to be with? Do I have to re-think my chosen career?
So many questions, not so many answers and so little time. My life, though not as gloomy as before, is becoming lethargic. DFA is unlike BSP (where I just log files in my computer, eat & shop at rustan’s in harrison>hehe) but even the substantive work does not make me feel any better. Money is no issue because I’m used to a stumpy income (and I have my family to thank for *winks). It’s just that I’m not a fan of delayed-gratifications. I work now and I want the result not in an instant but definitely not in 5 years or so! I love working for the government but maybe just because of the people I work with :(. These people are inspiring because they have the patience to stay and serve. Sometimes I feel terrible thinking of quitting but perhaps this is NOT FOR ME.
Mang and I have realized that we share the same problem (>haha not so surprising). You see, Mang has been working for court of justice. Like me, she felt that life in the government is too slow for her. Mang could not see herself growing old and working as a public official. She looks at her old officemates and cringes at the idea (we’re really cousins!). We both want change but what change? There’s no certainty if we break free from our present careers. I know I want to work with kids but where will I go? I know Mang wants to be her own boss but where will she begin?
Changing paths is not easy. There are a lot of things and a lot of people to consider. Our parents are a big factor to consider. We haven’t told them yet because surely they would be a little disappointed. But what can we do if the jobs we have do not make us happy anymore? What will I do?
Psalm 139:23-24
Look deep into my Heart,God
and find out everything
I am thinking.
Don’t let me follow evil ways,
but lead me in the way
that time has proven true.
(Reposted from my blogspot> Friday, September 7, 2007)
xtra: i’ve already told my ‘rents…;(
