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Days are passing by so quick. Before you know it, it will be Christmas, then the New Year, then my birthday (>Ack! I’ll soon be 24!!!). What should I be at this stage? Am I in the right track? Should I be somewhere else? Are these people the right people to be with? Do I have to re-think my chosen career?
So many questions, not so many answers and so little time. My life, though not as gloomy as before, is becoming lethargic. DFA is unlike BSP (where I just log files in my computer, eat & shop at rustan’s in harrison>hehe) but even the substantive work does not make me feel any better. Money is no issue because I’m used to a stumpy income (and I have my family to thank for *winks). It’s just that I’m not a fan of delayed-gratifications. I work now and I want the result not in an instant but definitely not in 5 years or so! I love working for the government but maybe just because of the people I work with :(. These people are inspiring because they have the patience to stay and serve. Sometimes I feel terrible thinking of quitting but perhaps this is NOT FOR ME.

Mang and I have realized that we share the same problem (>haha not so surprising). You see, Mang has been working for court of justice. Like me, she felt that life in the government is too slow for her. Mang could not see herself growing old and working as a public official. She looks at her old officemates and cringes at the idea (we’re really cousins!). We both want change but what change? There’s no certainty if we break free from our present careers. I know I want to work with kids but where will I go? I know Mang wants to be her own boss but where will she begin?

Changing paths is not easy. There are a lot of things and a lot of people to consider. Our parents are a big factor to consider. We haven’t told them yet because surely they would be a little disappointed. But what can we do if the jobs we have do not make us happy anymore? What will I do?

Psalm 139:23-24
Look deep into my Heart,God
and find out everything
I am thinking.
Don’t let me follow evil ways,
but lead me in the way
that time has proven true.

(Reposted from my blogspot> Friday, September 7, 2007)

xtra: i’ve already told my ‘rents…;(

My sister and I have been talking and we chanced upon the topic of being SingLe. I’m at this point in my life and still no partner in sight (>sob!-wink)! I have never worried about it until lately that I found myself as one of the few partnerless or the only dateless in the bundle.

Ellaine confessed that she sees me in her Dean. Dean is in her forties. Smart, sassy, pretty, stylish, succesful (>no wonder my sister compared me to Dean-she is so like me-hehe) and (>tadah!) single. I was not hurt by what Ellaine’s getting at. Though it is my dream to have a family someday (>a partner and a bunch of kiddos), I am so ready if that would not be granted.

Miday and I have talked about it too because we are two of the few left in Xaijua with a cricket-sounding love life (>haha!). She asked me if I have been praying for it and I realized that maybe I should. Middy is a born again christian and has been praying for her man eversince. I, on the other hand, have just graduated from my CLP. I don’t always remember to include it in my prayers but when I do, I tell God "Please grant me a partner who will love me and who I will love back. God, let him be someone who shares the same principles and dreams that I have. Please let him be a responsible person…May God blessed me with the One but as of now, I am content. Whatever plans He has for me, I am ready to take.

I am single but that does not mean I’m alone. I am single but that does not mean I’m sad. I maybe even happier than those with partners (>with a slight touch of bitterness-kidding!).

>reposted from my blogspot (Sunday, September 2, 2007)

Today is not another lazy Sunday. My Dad had always wanted to ride the train and today was his first. It was a family day out (minus Kenth) to Divisoria ! Weeepeee!!! It was a spur of the moment trip. My dad was in a good mood (nako very rare moment) at bigla na lang nagyaya. Cyempre, I would not dare miss this chance. Though I have been to Divisoria a couple of times, I never really had experienced the Divine *LOL. We parked at Metroeast and rode the jeep to the LRT station. I am not a regular train passenger. I have used the MRT a number of times with my college friends (mishu guys >parang di nagkita lately *winks) but have ridden the LRT just once. So lamang lang pala ako kay Daddy ng isa *LOL. The trip was fast. Ayoko lng yung part na sumakay kami ng jeep sa Recto. I don’t want to elaborate>>>ewenezz. I was ready to attack the mall with Ellaine but I was a little dismayed. I didn’t know where to start >>>sob. It’s hard to find the good finds without someone who knows the place. We could not get anything we like inside that was why we parted from our parents and squeezed through the sidewalk. It was a long walk before Ellaine and I found something interesting. Our first buy > a couple of shades. Nakakaloka! Vug and I always buy our shades at PRP because we find it cheap P250-P350. Pero mas may chi-cheap pa ba sa P50 shades???!!! YES cute big frames for just 50. After that, we bought sparkly sequined belts for >>> P35! At ito pa>>> we got a cute purple hamper for just P35 without haggling! We asked the vendor how much it was and said it’s P70. Ellaine and I declined and so she lowered the price to P50. We were actually leaving when the vendor asked us how much we wanted to pay for the hamper! Desperate??! Ellaine (kuripot talaga) said P30 but we met at P35. Ang saya ng feeling (babaw ko talaga)! Actually that was all we bought because the trip was really just for the train ride. We only spent a couple of hours at Divi and I think that was just enough. Maybe I should go with Miday the next time I go there para mas masaya>>>nax. My Dad was super happy. Parang bata kasi ngayon lang ulit nag-commute. Well, Ellaine and I were super happy also because we got something out of my Dad’s trip. We finally got the feel of Divi!

Just a thought: if i were Tinker Bell, my Nevernever Land would be (whatelse but) Iloilo.

it’s been a couple of weeks of pure fun and "kalandian" >>>LOL. Mang and I may never have completed our list of things to do but I surely had a blast >>>winks!

During week days, i stayed at my Tita’s mansion in Cabatuan (LOL) to report to the Mayor’s office and to teach cute lil Cookie.

My weekends are, ofcourse, spent in the city with my cousins >>> mang, pia, hans, michael and janjan. We had late night bonding moments at clubs, restos and bars. Usually, we just hang out at Smallville but Hans introduced us to Reasons, a videoke bar near Rob. Mang and I were not really ready the night we were there, to show off our talents (kung meron man). We made a promise to make our audience WOW next time that’s why kina-career namin ngaun ang magic sing >>>LOL. Britney songs - EASY.

Cyempre, my vacation would not be complete without malling with mang. We are really born shoppers! Actually we both learned that without each other’s company a trip to the mall would be so dull (unless may money kami). If we were together (combined powers>>>chika) we could go all day long and find the best buys. Mishu mang! Bought you a colorful bra pla today.

Bora and working out were crossed from the list>>> di na kaya e especially the latter. pero something (or is it sometwo? ) made up for what we were not able to do>>>LOL. Nako, I’ll be back with more guts. Humanda na cya>>>weeehhh???.

i’m off to iloilo for a week long vacation>>>at last!!! been wanting to go there since May, but it was just this sunday that my parents finally decided to let me (whooopy!!!). mang and i have already made a draft of our agenda (*winks). take a peek…

1. chika to the max - haven’t seen each other for about 6 mos. surely there’s a lot of catching up

2. shop shop shop - hunting for cute stuffs is our way of relaxing

3. diet and exercise(?) - ;)) we NEED to do this for no. 4

4. BORA here we come! - not even the rain could stop us from slipping into our bikinis ;))

5. bootie shaking at Smallville - we miss dressing up for a night out

6. bond with the pretty others - a lot of sleeping overs and hanging outs with peeyah and hanzel

if only apple and star were here…(*sigh)

so excited cant wait for tom ;))

I just took a survey on relationships and it says that I am an XPIG – Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes me a Catch (daw>>>calling all men! LOL).

Here’s more of the diagnosis. Read on (binibenta ko sarili ko> LOL).

You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out.

You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can’t we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved.

You’re a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don’t just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other’s needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn’t necessarily make you feel under-appreciated — you’re too well-adjusted and self-aware for that — but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself.

Of all the types, you would make the best parent.

You are coiffed.

Didja see "Big Fish"? ‘Cause you’re like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish." (nako gotta see this flick> LOL).

* take the quiz! log on to http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Relationship&page=1 now